-- tertekan --

huhu~~ aku tgh tertekan di tahap yg melantun2..program yg ntah mende2..output punlagi la mende2..rase sedih pon ada..rase nak menangis pon ader tp rase nak balik kampong mmg di tahap yg meluap2!Akunak cari diri aku semula..yer ke, zoss??!aku pon kurang pasti la dgn diri aku nih sbb tahap "kelaziness" aku makin di tahap cipan!shit man!!

aku pon tak tahu aper nak jd dgn PP1 nih.ygpenting buat pon x bersungguh2,last minute, cincai, cikai and so on. sometimes i fee; malu with myself, dasar x sedar diri,org dah bagi eluang tp i dont take the opportunity sebijak mungkin.Kdg2 rase nyesal gakdgn aper yg aku buat tp...nasi dah menjadi bubur!Aku yg pilih jln hidup aku utk jd mcm nih..huhu~~

Ya Allah, bagi aku kekuatan..dan kekuatan dan kekuatan utk meneruskan idup kat sini till the end line..insya allah! -stop- nak wat implementation file!

-- sepagi di UTP --

huhu..sepagi yg x jadi..plan nak memposingkan diri tp ramai dah makhluk asing kat poket tur ma..esok farrah plan..huhu jd ker fara??

td mlm aku membuta dr pukul 10 smpai la ke suboh.tu la namanye bdk x sedar diri..heheh..takpela aku nk balas dendam sbb tido tak teratur utkmgg nih..ehehlpsni confirm teriak lako liza..ingat diri sket keje ko tu!!

*data structure (assignment 1, lab report 3)
*ip (exercise 2, 3)..website ko tu pon xsiap lagi jah oiii

agak2 la bleh ke aku nak cover for this 2 days (act not 2 days anymore)..huhu..moga tuhan bagi aku kekuatan dlm kekuatan..

mak, akak dh x tahan nak balik..wawawa!!i really misu so much!!

--test..assignment..test..assignment!??--

erm..tula nasib aku spjg this week and next week.tu belom keje mase cuti lagi..haah mengeloh jemcm never been a student b4 je erk!bukannla, sbb dah sdp mase keje balik xyah pikir mendebile dh jd student tido la paling x teratur.mase keje makan yg x teratur..huhuhu how can i survive for whole this 3 years??helpme god!

aku teramat2 sedih coz timeaku tgh hilang keyakinan & ketabahan membe2 aku sume dtg tolong.rase syahdu!irnie, mai,jaidi kalo la perasaan aku ni transparent baru korang tahu betapa pentingnye korang in my life.aku bersyukur dpt sahabat mcmkorang.sahabat sejati!also to my "bintang hati"..hehe time kacih erk for ur excellent support..erm mcmla awk tu besh sgt pung!! ("-")..

dh lps 2 test which are bus stats and tech wri..emm for bus stats the questions are quit tough and of course dont hv enough time ma to complete the task..owh god,pls show me the truth way.huhu berlaku la 1 keajaiban.tech wri donno knowto say..almost 22 years blajo english tu tp x pandai2 pun..bosan!skrang ni maleh nk pkir.aku dh buat yg terbaik so doa jela skrang moga2 aper yg aku buat tu dpt membahagiakan aku...huhu..insya allah!

berpuluh2 assignment are still queuing..wawwa..data structure?!SAD?!!wawwaw poning lowh aku..msh x dpt menyesuaikan diri in my new world...moga ada cahaya menanti aku di hadapan...hehheaku kena selesaikan sumeyg tertangguh tu for this 2 days weekend..so after this need to pay attention with IP test..subject yg berjaya membuat aku ketakutan...ya allah wny i'mso stupid in programming??helpme..help me..

moga aku terus tabah..yakin..tabah and tabah..insya allah!

i mis my family so much..mak, abah..akak nak balik!nakcr kekuatan yg semakin hilang..

--Can I finish till the end line??--

akum...emm so long time did not face out here.not bcoz running of time but no internet connection..almost 2 months i think since i'm here only one time i'm updating this blogger..

aku mcm culture shock kat sini!so many new things that i need to catch it up b4 aku jd bengong+biol!things that new to me:
a) exam - here, exam mmg diutamakan..dgn quiz la, test la!mgg ni and nxt week aku ada test melambak2.cerita pasai quiz..dia org selalu buat on the sport!and td aku ader quiz IP..hahaha wat pasai table and javascript..mampos x layan!aku xdpt jwb wpun dulu dh pernah blajo...aku x pernah karang sendri coding2 tu..cut n paste technology je..so,i need to chane la..blajo coding2 ni kalo x confirm xtau buat kalo exam nanti.ya allah takut gak!
b) assignment - ni paling aku terkejut!b4 this during taking my diploma seklai assignment smpai 50-60 pages..paling kureng pun 30 pages la but here, plg byk x sampai 30pages..finalproject pon just 20-30 pages.really amazing!bkn sbb kagum tp mcm xleh terima bile wat assignment group yg time given dia 2 weeks just submitted 2-3 pages?!mcm bodo je..dulu, 2 weeks-ind assg-50-60 pages..kalo x confirm fail and kena campak dlm tong smpah jer..moga aku dpt score dlm assign!!insya allah..
c) manusia - typical dia orang kot..kalo blajo senang gile paham!heheh xpernah ader soalan dok ngangguk je..aku pun dh jd dia org dh..but the lecturers are really good!i'm salute that!so different from b4...bdk2nye ader yg sombong nak mampos budget besh jerrr..

mayb aku sambong lg 3 years..can make 2 n half years but aku tak nak jd mengong final sem amik smpai 7/6 subject..dgn FYP lagi wpun proposal and report dia just 20-30 pages je..hahah..finalsem biar la amik dlm 4 subject je..kalo org kate aku tuakat sini aku rela dr aku jd gile...aku x kisah asal xde sangkut paper and yg penting aku takut gak pasai pointer nih..xkisah x tinggi means biasa2 je tp xde paper sangkut..insya allah!

harapan aku kat sini moga aku terus tabah,dpt blajo dgn baik pastu dpt jejakkan kaki ke garisan penamat!insya allah..

byk nk ckp tpno ideas..worry bout test,then lab report2 for ADS tak siap lagi!tension!!!